urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921 Once it's stopped beating Forgotten Completely 2005-09-11T07:52:47Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:34909 2005-09-11T07:52:47Z 2005-09-11T07:52:47Z You have reached a dead-end, this person and this journal no longer exists. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:34761 2005-09-02T03:42:33Z 2005-09-02T03:42:33Z the t.v. <p><img src="http://www.autoextremist.com/NAIAS2005/Pontiac/Solstice.jpg"></p> <p>Beautiful car.</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:34429 2005-09-01T20:32:31Z 2005-09-01T20:32:31Z Faint~ Linkin Park Once i asked a little girl,<br />"Little girl why do you cry, why do you cry when your life is perfect.<br />You have friends and a family that loves you, so why do you cry?<br />Where do your tears come from?"<br />She looked at me straight in the eye and said to me with so much conviction<br />that i truly believed that this little gril in her frilly pink dress had seen more heartbreak and despair than I could ever imagine, <br />"I cry because I have nothing left in the world. Yes I have a family and friends, but the so called family doesn't care about me. My father who used to do everything with me, doesnt have the time or energy to even give me a hug. The mother who always treated me like her baby is now treating someone else the way she used to treat me. And the sister who took that away from me treats me like I am the shit on her shoes."<br />I looked at her and just from this I wanted to cry with her, for her. But she continued.<br />"My best friends are people that anyone in their right mind would want, but I dont think they want me. They have other people in thier lives to do the things for them that I used to do. They no longer need me, the show of friendship that they do is just that, a show."<br />I sat down beside her and pulled her into my arms and started to stroke the top of her head. She looked up at me and asked the question I was so afrid she would ask,<br />"Why do you cry at night when no one is looking? Why do you bleed your life away night after night, leaving new and old scars to intermingle?"<br />I just stared at her, how could someone this small so eloquently put into words the way I escaped.<br />"I do it to escape the pain the I feel everyday and cant express, I do it to release the screams that I want to vocalize but can't. I do it to bring myself back into this shell that I inhabit, even though I dont want to. I do it to hold back the tears that I want to flow, but knowI can't."<br />Her eyes looked straight into my soul and I knew right then that she needed me and I needed her. We were thrown together by fate but we stayed together out of the plain fact taht we were scared to death to be alone. After that we were never alone again. Even in death, we were never alone... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:34292 2005-08-28T04:00:45Z 2005-08-28T04:00:45Z just thoughts I dont feel like I belong anymore<br />I'm falling out, I have to stop crying out<br />I cant be the reason for thier tears <br />I cant be the reason for thier distress<br />I was always able to hide the pain within<br />what happened to that ability<br />what happened to make me want to be normal<br />what happened to make me want to get out of this darkness<br />I used to be happy lying in this darkness<br />letting the monsters eat away at my soul<br />and then something happened<br />I wanted to keep what was left of the shattered soul<br />i wanted to have the laughter in my voice be real<br />I wanted the light back in my eyes that used to be tehre<br />what happened?<br />I never wanted to live<br />I didnt want to keep living a lie<br />and then.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:33917 2005-08-23T03:07:26Z 2005-08-23T03:07:26Z Count on Me~ Whitney Housten Count on me through thick and thin<br />A friendship that will never end<br />When you are weak<br />I will be strong<br />Helping you to carry on<br />Call on me, I will be there<br />Don't be afraid<br />Please believe me when I say<br />Count on...<br /><br />I can see it's hurting you<br />I can feel your pain<br />It's hard to see the sunshine through the rain<br />I know sometimes it seems as if<br />It's never gonna end<br />But you'll get through it<br />Just don't give in cause you can<br /><br />Chorus:<br />Count on me (mm) through thick and thin<br />A friendship that will never end (ah)<br />When you are weak<br />I will be strong<br />Helping you to carry on<br />Call on me, I will be there<br />Don't be afraid<br />Please believe me when I say<br />Count on...<br />You can count on me<br /><br />Oh yes you can (ah)<br />Oo, I know sometimes it seems as if<br />We're standing all alone<br />But we'll get through it<br />Cuz love won't let us fall<br /><br />Chorus:<br />Count on me (count on me, i'll be there) through thick and thin<br />A friendship that will never end<br />When you are weak<br />I will be strong (I'll be strong)<br />Helping you to carry on (yes, you know)<br />Call on me, I will be there<br />Don't be afraid<br />Please believe me when I say<br />Count on...<br />Count on...<br /><br />There's a place inside all of us<br />Where our faith in love begins<br />You should reach to find the truth in love<br />The answers' there within, oh<br />I know that life can make you feel<br />It's much harder than it really is<br />But we'll get through it (we'll get through it)<br />(Just) Just (don't) don't give in (oh)<br /><br />Chorus:<br />Count on me (count on me) through thick and thin<br />A friendship that will never end (it'll never end)<br />When you are weak (you)<br />I will be strong (I will be strong)<br />Helping you to carry on<br />Call on me, I will be there<br />Don't be afraid (don't be afraid now)<br />Please believe me when I say<br />Count on<br />Count on<br />Count on<br />Count on<br />Count on<br />Count on me<br />Oh yes you can<br />I know I can<br />Yes you can<br />Well<br />So glad I can, count on me<br /><br />I know that life ain't always good to you.<br />I've seen exactly what it’s put you through<br />Thrown you around and turned you upside down and so you<br />You got to thinking there was no way out<br />You started sinking and it pulled you down<br />It may be tough you've got to get back up<br />Because you know that life ain't over yet<br />I'm here for you so don't forget<br />You can count on me<br />Cause’ I will carry you till you carry on<br />Anytime you need someone<br />Somebody strong to lean on<br />Well you can count on me<br />To hold you till the healing is done<br />And every time you fall apart<br />Well you can hide here in my arms<br />And you can count on me<br />To hold you till that feeling is gone<br /><br />I wonder why nobody's waiting on you<br />I'd like to be the one to pull you through your darkest times<br />I'd love to be the light that finds you<br />I see a silver lining on your cloud<br />I'll pick you up whenever you fall down<br />Just take my hand and I will help you stand<br />Because you know that life ain't over yet<br />I'm here for you so don't forget<br />You can count on me<br />Cause’ I will carry you till you carry on<br />Anytime you need someone<br />Somebody strong to lean on<br />Well you can count on me to hold you till the healing is done<br />And every time you fall apart you can hide here in my arms<br />And you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is<br />Gone so you can live today<br />Seems so long to yesterday<br />Keep on counting on me to carry you till you carry on<br />Carry on<br /><br />You know that life ain’t over yet<br />I’m here for you so don’t forget<br />You can count on me cause I will carry you till you carry on<br />Anytime you need someone<br />Somebody strong to lean on<br />Well you can count on me to hold you till that healing is done<br />And every time you fall apart<br />You can hide here in my arms<br />And you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is gone<br />Remember life ain’t over yet<br />I’m here for you so don’t forget<br />That you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is gone<br />Remember life ain’t over yet<br />I’m here for you so don’t forget<br />That you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is gone<br /><br />I love my best friend in the whole world, I feel empty without her. She never let me down and I hope, if I have, I never will again. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:33699 2005-08-17T04:11:38Z 2005-08-17T04:11:38Z Breathe No More~ Evenesence With this knife<br />I apologize <br />for every wrong thing I said<br />for every wrong thing I did<br /><br />With this knife <br />I apologize<br />for not being the perfect daughter<br />for not being the perfect friend<br /><br />With this knife<br />I cut away the bindings<br />that holds my soul <br />to this earth<br /><br />With this Knife<br />I slash at the bad<br />the ugly <br />and the mean<br /><br />With this knife<br />I say goodbye<br />tonight<br />and forever<br /><br />With this knife<br />you can move on<br />you can be happy<br />you can forget urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:33452 2005-08-15T03:34:30Z 2005-08-15T03:34:30Z Beautiful People on ABC Can I just tell you that band camp fuckin rocks!!!!!!!!! I crowd surfed for the very first time EVER!!!!!!! Amanda was like Nikki you have to and of course being the chicken shit I am I didnt want to cuz I was scared that the people would drop me, and they did, and I would die, which I didn't. But it was so fuckin awsome, I think I need to go to bed though cuz I am wiped. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:33026 2005-08-10T03:43:55Z 2005-08-10T03:43:55Z Daylight Dancer~ Lacuna Coil A band I heard at work while doing recovery, I like them, some of u might not but I did. They're called Lacuna Coil, weird name but oh well.<br /><br />Oh no, here it is again<br />I need to know when I'll fall in to decay<br />Something wrong with every plan of my life<br />I didn't really notice that you've been here<br /><br />Dolefully desired<br />Destiny of a lie<br /><br />(Chorus)<br />Set me free<br />Your heaven's a lie<br />Set me free with your love<br />Set me free<br /><br />Oh no, here it is again<br />I need to know why did I choose to betray you<br />Something wrong with all the plans of my life<br />I didn't realize that you've been here<br /><br />Dolefully desired<br />Destiny of a lie<br /><br />(Chorus) Repeat<br /><br />Dolefully desired...<br /><br />(Chorus) Repeat<br /><br />Lost Lullaby<br />Simple as i am<br />The lies around<br />are convincing me theres nothing right there<br />outside only breeze<br /><br />cold that rescues me<br />the wound in here<br />Is reminding me that i'll be one day<br />Just a broken wheel onto your way<br /><br />I dont want to please you forever<br /><br />While the magic dice<br />are on the ground<br />It's so hard to decide between myself and you<br />pain is covering me<br /><br />As a healing wind<br />that clears the sky<br />will you promise me the things you told me?<br />will you give me everything i want?<br /><br />I dont want to please you forever<br /><br />no lies<br />im purified<br />and no more failure in my life<br />water onto my fire<br /><br />I dont want to please you forever urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:32987 2005-08-09T16:06:04Z 2005-08-09T16:06:04Z October Sky I have a massive head-hurt right now, its the same one from yesterday, poop. Just thought I would let everyone know. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:32742 2005-08-08T00:21:28Z 2005-08-08T00:21:28Z American Idiot~ Green Day I Fucking You~ Godsmack<br /><br />For everything you do <br />I'd like to swallow you <br />And every day I'm gonna blame you <br />Even if you justify <br />Every fuckin bullshit lie <br />It only makes me want to break you <br /><br />You pull me down <br />And you crucify my name <br />You make me insane <br />It's broken now, <br />Don't ever look my way <br />Don't even think I'm playin <br /><br />Cuz I fuckin hate you <br />You're such a liar <br />And I'd love to hang you <br />You're all the same to me <br /><br />When you repeatedly <br />Take advantage of me <br />The only thought I get of you, sickens me <br />Everybody knows you're fake <br />You're everything I fuckin hate <br />And I'm everything that you could never be <br /><br />You pull me down <br />And crucify name <br />You make me insane <br />It's broken now, <br />Don't ever look my way <br />Don't even think I'm playin <br /><br />(2x) <br />I fuckin hate you <br />You're such a liar <br />And I'd love to hang you <br />You're all the same to me <br /><br />Fuck you (4x) <br /><br />You pull me down <br />And crucify name <br />You make me insane <br />It's broken now, <br />Don't ever look my way <br />Don't even think I'm playin <br /><br />(2x) <br />Cuz I fuckin hate you <br />You're such a liar <br />And I'd love to hang you <br />You're all the same to me <br /><br />Fuck you (4x)It's broken now, don't ever look my way, don't even think I'm playin<br />Cause I fucking hate you, your such a liar, and I love to hate<br />you, your all the same to me. (x2)<br /><br />Fuck you (x4) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:32398 2005-08-05T06:15:56Z 2005-08-05T06:15:56Z Ultimate Thrill on Travel Channel <p><img src="http://www.ultimaterollercoaster.com/coasters/reviews/hypersonic/img/pkd_hyper3a.jpg"><img src="http://www.lonestarthrills.com/gallery/albums/Six-Flags-Over-Georgia-Superman-Ultimate-Flight/sfog_supermanultimateflight008.thumb.jpg"></p> <p>I want to ride these, too bad I dont live anywhere near the parks thier in.</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:32158 2005-08-05T00:44:28Z 2005-08-05T00:44:28Z Exodus~ Evenesence My black backpack's stuffed with broken dreams<br />Twenty bucks should get me through the week<br />Never said a word of discontentment<br />Thought it a thousand times but now I'm leaving home<br /><br />Here in the shadows<br />I'm safe, I'm free<br />I've nowhere else to go but<br />I cannot stay where I don't belong<br /><br />Two months pass by and it's getting cold<br />I know I'm not lost, I'm just alone<br />But I won't cry, I won't give up, I can't go back now<br />Waking up is knowing who you really are<br /><br />Here in the shadows<br />I'm safe, I'm free<br />I've nowhere else to go but<br />I cannot stay where I don't belong<br /><br />In the shadows<br />I'm safe, I'm free<br />I've nowhere else to go but<br />I cannot stay here<br /><br />Show me the shadow where true meaning lies<br />So much more dismay in empty eyes<br /><br /><br />Please, please forgive me<br />But I won't be home again<br />Maybe someday you'll look up<br />And barely conscious, you'll say to no one<br />Isn't something missing<br /><br />You won't cry for my absence I know<br />You forgot me long ago<br />Am I that unimportant<br />Am I so insignificant<br />Isn't something missing<br />Isn't someone missing me<br /><br />Even though I'm the sacrifice<br />You won't try for me, not now<br />Though I'd die to know you love me<br />I'm all alone<br />Isn't someone missing me<br /><br />Please, please forgive me<br />But I won't be home again<br />I know what you do to yourself<br />I breathe deep and cry out<br />Isn't something missing<br /><br />Even though I'm the sacrifice<br />You won't try for me, not now<br />Though I'd die to know you love me<br />I'm all alone<br />Isn't someone missing me urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:31831 2005-08-04T04:37:24Z 2005-08-04T04:37:24Z On Bended Knee~ Boyz II Men <p>Guess what I did today? I went to Six Flags without parental supervision, I know to some people that doesnt seem like much but with my parents it was huge, going out of state with just schafer and Amanda, without them thats monumental. Ok so while we were there we rode Batman, Iron Wolf, Raging bull, a water ride and a space ship ride. Raging bull was the shit, OMG i love that ride. Iron Wolf was awsome too, it freaked me out a little cuz you have to stand but it was awsome. Dude, on the way there we got lost and had to get off and get back on the interstate like 3 times, but thats ok cuz half the fun of a road trip is getting lost. Than when we got back me and manda went to see SKY HIGH, I liked it, I dont know about manda though. There's a guy in the movie that is, nice looking. Worth 8.25 alone. Ok so that was my day in a nutshell. Best day in a long time. </p> <p>&nbsp;</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:31620 2005-08-02T06:33:27Z 2005-08-02T06:33:27Z TV~ Walker Texas Ranger My creativity is gone.......... :((<br />Imagination is the one weapon in the war against reality. <br />Jules de Gaultier<br />Or maybe I never had any.........:(( urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:31253 2005-08-01T06:04:04Z 2005-08-01T06:05:11Z Sonny Came Home~ Shawn Colvin <p>This is another creative writing thing... once again I'm putting it in here because I like it and the notebook is falling apart.</p> <p><em>She's like the ocean in every way, peaceful and calm from a distance but up close she's tumultuous and larger than life. When you look at her from far away everything looks in order. Her surface is calm and protected by barriers. She's never choppy and always smooth as glass. The moment you get to close she can overthrow you with her power and drag you down to the very bottom and suffocate you. She can make all your dreams come true or destroy them with one hit of her emotional termoil. She's never pristine and you can't see through her no matter how hard you try. There hidden secrets at the bottom of her dark floor. There is no way to tame her and if you try you will get beaten in into the rocks. Even the ones closest to her get sucked under and sometimes drown in her vast expanse. Storms drive her wild, any type of storm will do, she will turn up the bottom and try to start a new. When all is said and done, after the long nights of churning and rolling she once again looks calm on the surface. But&nbsp;underneath that&nbsp;inpenitrable exterior you&nbsp;know thatt somewhere in the shaddows of her mind something is being hunted and once again a new storm is brewing.</em></p> So I figured something out, I like the end of these but not the rest of them, maybe I should stop putting the actual things in here. Hmmmmmmm thought? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:31208 2005-07-31T05:57:05Z 2005-07-31T05:57:05Z Just the crying in my head She never thought that she would say good-bye, but the time had to come when it was all she could think about. As she took a drag on a cigarette, even though she never smoked, she thought about all the people that would miss her and all she could come up with was nothing. No one would miss her the way she would miss them, and worst of all, no one would care that was gone, no one would even notice that she didnt show up for school or work or practice or the study session, they would all think that she had something better to do. They always thought that, they never asked why or where when she disappeared, they just assumed that she had better places to be. If they had asked questions, if they had looked into it they would've seen they whenever she didnt show up she was withering away on her bedroom carpet, crying crimson tears that never really took away the pain. They would see the mask she wore every single day of life was not who she was. She was not the good student, the good friend, the good athelete. She was the lost, lonely, helpless, hopeless girl that they always made fun of. And now she would say good-bye to the people she though were her friends but never really cared. She would good-bye to the world that at one time she thought could give her everything. She would say good-bye, with the shiney little friend that had become her confidant and shoulder to cry. With the last swipe of the blade and the last salty tear, she whispered good-bye and drifted, peacefully, into oblivion. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:30741 2005-07-30T07:03:17Z 2005-07-30T07:03:17Z Hmmm, After all you put me through<br />You'd think I'd despise you<br />But in the end I want to thank you<br />'Cause you made me that much stronger<br /><br />When I, thought I knew you<br />Thinking, that you were true<br />I guess I, I couldn't trust<br />Called your bluff, time is up<br />'Cause I've had enough<br />You were, there by my side<br />Always, down for the ride<br />But your, joy ride just came down in flames<br />'Cause your greed sold me out in shame, mmhmm<br /><br />After all of the stealing and cheating<br />You probably think that I hold resentment for you<br />But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong<br />'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do<br />I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through<br />So I wanna say thank you 'cause<br /><br />It makes me that much stronger<br />Makes me work a little bit harder<br />It makes me that much wiser<br />So thanks for making me a fighter<br />Made me learn a little bit faster<br />Made my skin a little bit thicker<br />Makes me that much smarter<br />So thanks for making me a fighter<br /><br />Ohh, ohh, ohh, ohhhh, ohh-yeah ah uhhhuh<br /><br />Never, saw it coming<br />All of, your backstabbing<br />Just so, you could cash in<br />On a good thing before I realized your game<br />I heard, you're going around<br />Playing the victim now<br />But don't, even begin<br />Feeling I'm the one to blame<br />'Cause you dug your own grave<br /><br />After all of the fights and the lies<br />Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore<br />Uh, no more, oh no, it's over<br />'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture<br />I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down<br />So I wanna say thank you 'cause<br /><br />It makes me that much stronger<br />Makes me work a little bit harder<br />Makes me that much wiser<br />So thanks for making me a fighter<br />Made me learn a little bit faster<br />Made my skin a little bit thicker<br />It makes me that much smarter<br />So thanks for making me a fighter<br /><br />How could this man I thought I knew<br />Turn out to be unjust so cruel<br />Could only see the good in you<br />Pretended not to see the truth<br />You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself<br />Through living in denial<br />But in the end you'll see<br />You won't stop me!<br /><br />I am a fighter and I,<br />I ain't gonna stop<br />There is no turning back<br />I've had enough<br /><br />'Cause it makes me that much stronger<br />Makes me work a little bit harder<br />Makes me that much wiser<br />So thanks for making me a fighter<br />Made me learn a little bit faster<br />Made my skin a little bit thicker<br />It makes me that much smarter<br />So thanks for making me a fighter<br /><br />You thought I would forget,<br />But I, I remember<br />I remember, I remember<br />You thought I would forget,<br />But I, I remember<br />I remember, I remember<br /><br />'Cause it makes me that much stronger<br />Makes me work a little bit harder<br />Makes me that much wiser<br />So thanks for making me a fighter<br />Made me learn a little bit faster<br />Made my skin a little bit thicker<br />It makes me that much smarter<br />So thanks for making me a fighter urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:30593 2005-07-30T06:50:00Z 2005-07-30T06:50:00Z Dead or Alive~ Bon Jovi <p>This is something that I wront in creative writing last year. I'm putting it in here because I like it and my notebook is falling apart. I dont know if any of this makes any sense so you should tell me. </p> <p><em>And this is how I see the world. I have seen its secret punishments and&nbsp;tried to find its soul; but now i see it from the eyes of the betrayed, a lonely heart, a vengeful soul; a black heart with nothing left to lose; a crying child with so much to gain. I have the feel of hate in my heart and the vision of a future without it. And I see the human nature of it, peaceful on the outside&nbsp;and tearing it down on the inside, being ever mindful of the outside actions, like a mother over her child. A desire burns far off in the distance, a desire to be free from them, them who control our every move. We grasp at hope with tired arms and tired hearts, trying to pull ourselves out of the black hole thats devoured us. And suddenly the faint whisperings that speak of love and laughter and happiness give us the strength we need to continue, the first sign of the living world. That feeling i can never forget. That feeling of belonging and of love, it engulfed me and devoured me whole. The first time in a long time the empty felt whole.</em></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:30208 2005-07-27T03:35:27Z 2005-07-27T03:42:57Z In the Air Tonight~ Nonpoint I think I am done...<br />my thoughts, my life, are not my own anymore<br />they belong to someone else, someone I dont even know<br />someone i don't particularily care to know<br />I'm taking my life back<br />I'm taking my thoughts back<br />I am going to become the girl i want to be<br />the girl that used to be in the mirror<br />the girl that made her own decisions<br />the girl that just didnt fucking care<br />This is my fucking life<br />not yours<br />these are my fucking thoughts <br />not yours<br />get the hell out of my head<br />I do not belong to you<br />I belong to no one<br />not even my fucking parents<br />I make my own choices so shut the fuck up<br />you dont get to choose what the hell i do<br />or who i do it with<br />GET THE FUCK OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br />Ok so that was just something ya know, to get some anger out that I am feeling right now. So i just got home from work and you know what that pisses me off too. Its way to fucking late and I have to be at that hell hole again tomorro at 9 a.m. I am on day 6 of 7. Jesus fucking christ, you'd think that they had more cashiers. I am getting so fucking tired of this stupid ass job. I am getting tired of this stupid ass place. I have no control of anything anymore, i swear to fucking god. Maybe thats my fault, for letting it get so out of control, probably. So if it's my fault I can undo it and thats exactly what I am going to do, undo it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:30197 2005-07-16T07:28:14Z 2005-07-16T07:28:14Z I Believe~ Blessed Union of Souls <p><img src="http://images.amazon.com/images/P/0439784549.01.LZZZZZZZ.jpg"></p> <p>Hell Fuckin' Yea Baby!!!!!!!!!!! At the fuckin book store till 130am, long ass time, plus i have to work at nine. That sucks, but I HAVE IT!</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:29761 2005-07-15T03:17:28Z 2005-07-15T03:17:28Z I hate doing this.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:29482 2005-07-11T21:30:00Z 2005-07-11T21:30:00Z You'll Think of Me Poem~Taproot<br />Overbearing panic attack entrenching my veins<br />In an hour i'll be ok <br />I pray this pain will go away permanently someday <br />I've seen more than...<br />I should have to...<br />I've seen this on my own<br /><br />this song is a,<br />poem to myself,<br />it helps me to live... <br />in case of fire,<br />BREAK the glass, <br />and move on into your own...<br /><br />reoccurring drowning effect entrenching my brain,<br />i hope you'll be ok someday,<br />so i can say that you moved on in the right way... <br />WE'VE seen this and <br />WE'VE breathed this and <br />WE'VE lived this on our own...<br /><br />this song is a,<br />poem to myself,<br />it helps me to live... <br />in case of fire,<br />BREAK the glass, <br />and move on into your own...<br />your own...<br /><br />BREAK...<br /><br />this song is a,<br />poem to myself,<br />it helps me to live... <br />in case of fire,<br />BREAK the glass, <br />and move on into your own...<br /><br />It's country but it works...<br /><br />You'll Think of Me~Kieth Urban<br />I woke up early this morning around 4 a.m.<br />With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate<br />I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep<br />But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake<br />Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms<br />I've been trying my best to get along<br />But that's okay there's nothing left to say but.<br /><br />Chorus:<br />Take your records, take your freedom<br />Take your memories, I don't need 'em<br />Take your space and take your reasons<br />But you'll think of me<br />And take your cat and leave my sweater<br />'Cause we have nothing left to weather<br />In fact I'll feel a whole lot better<br />But you'll think of me, you'll think of me.<br /><br />I went out driving, trying to clear my head<br />I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left<br />I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this<br />And all the baggage that seems to still exist<br />It seems the only blessing I have left to my name<br />Is not knowing what we could have been<br />What we should have been.<br />So.<br /><br />Chorus:<br />Take your records, take your freedom<br />Take your memories, I don't need 'em<br />Take your space and take your reasons<br />But you'll think of me<br />And take your cat and leave my sweater<br />'Cause we have nothing left to weather<br />In fact I'll feel a whole lot better<br />But you'll think of me.<br /><br />Someday I'm gonna run across your mind<br />Don't worry, I'll be fine<br />I'm gonna be alright<br />While you're sleeping with your pride<br />Wishing I could hold you tight<br />I'll be over you<br />And on with my life.<br /><br />Chorus:<br />Take your records, take your freedom<br />Take your memories, I don't need 'em<br />And take your cat and leave my sweater<br />'Cause we have nothing left to weather<br />In fact I'll feel a whole lot better<br />But you'll think of me.<br /><br />Chorus:<br />Take your records, take your freedom<br />Take your memories, I don't need 'em<br />Take your space and all your reasons<br />But you'll think of me<br />And take your cat and leave my sweater<br />'Cause we have nothing left to weather<br />In fact I'll feel a whole lot better<br />But you'll think of me, you'll think of me.<br /><br />And you're gonna think of me<br />Oh, someday baby, someday... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:29316 2005-07-10T04:46:18Z 2005-07-10T04:46:18Z You'll Think of Me~ Keith Urban <table width="350" align="center" border="0" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="2"><tr><td bgcolor="#E1E1E1"><center><img src="http://www.quizdiva.net/shortestpersonalitytest/black.jpg"></center><font color="#000000"><br />You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.<br />Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.<br />You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.<br /><br />For you, comfort and calm are very important.<br />You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.<br />You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.</font></td></tr></table><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/worldsshortestpersonalitytest/">The World's Shortest Personality Test</a></div><br /><br />table style="font-family: serif; color: black; font-size: 12pt;" width="350" align=center border="0" cellspacing="8" cellpadding="5"&gt;<br />&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td align="center" bgcolor="#FF99CC"&gt;<br /><h3 style="margin: 0; border: 0;">The Keys to Your Heart</h3><br />&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;<br />&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td bgcolor="#FF9FD2"&gt;<br />You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;<br />&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td bgcolor="#FFA6D9"&gt;<br />In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;<br />&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td bgcolor="#FFACDF"&gt;<br />You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything!&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;<br />&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td bgcolor="#FFB3E6"&gt;<br />You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;<br />&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td bgcolor="#FFB9EC"&gt;<br />Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;<br />&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td bgcolor="#FFBFF2"&gt;<br />Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;<br />&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td bgcolor="#FFC6F9"&gt;<br />You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;<br />&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td bgcolor="#FFCCFF"&gt;<br />In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;<br />&lt;/table&gt;<br /><br /><div align="center"><br /><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/">What Are The Keys To Your Heart?</a><br /></div><br /><table width="400" align="center" border="1" bordercolor="black" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="2"><tr><td bgcolor="#66CCFF" align="center"><font face="Georgia, Times New Roman, Times, serif" style="color:black; font-size: 14pt;"><b>Slow and Steady</b></font></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#FFFFFF"><center><img src="http://www.quizdiva.net/peoplesee/serious.jpg"></center><font color="#000000">Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. <br /><br />They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.<br /><br />It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.<br /><br />They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.</font></td></tr></table><br /><div align="center"><br /><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/howdopeopleseeyouquiz/">How Do People See You?</a><br /></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:28954 2005-07-08T05:46:59Z 2005-07-08T05:46:59Z Some moive on oxygen Hold On<br /><br />You keep your distance, I can't deny you<br />I've got the feeling, can't satisfy you<br />I've got your picture on the wall<br />I've got the picture, long gone<br />You keep your wishes I'll keep my feelings<br />There goes another one that kept me breathing<br />I'm waiting for you I know your leaving<br />I still adore you, you never need me<br /><br />Hold on<br />I found another way to let you go away<br />Hold on<br />You found another way to bleed my soul away<br /><br />The things you told me to hear you speak<br />I'm burning slowly I'm growing weak<br />You bring me closer to yesterday<br />Yesterday's a million miles away<br />Why can't you hear me? Why can't I sleep?<br />And I don't understand what keeps me breathing<br />I'm waiting for you I know your leaving<br />I'll still adore you, you'll never need me<br /><br />Hold on<br />I found another way to let you go away<br />Hold on<br />You found another way to bleed my soul away<br />(repeats 4 times)<br /><br />Some advice: Always double check your schedule, cuz you dont want a call from your mom tell you that you were supposed to be at work a half hour earlier. Bad bad thing. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:snoochie0921:28839 2005-07-03T04:56:49Z 2005-07-03T04:56:49Z The Notebook So this is it huh? This is what it feels like to have your heart ripped out of your chest and stomped on until there is nothing left but little pieces and than the pieces get set on fire and burn until there's ashes. Well let me tell you this sucks. You're all probably wondering what the hell I'm talking about. Well here it is: I got home from a very long day at work and turned my computer on, I had a message from strack; he can't be a part of my life anymore because he needs to move on and to heal and unfortuantly he can't do that with me in his life. Doesn't that just bite the big one huh? God I can't believe that he turned out to be just like Tim and Derek, even liz. Dumping me like yesterdays news. Well I'm done, I can't keep getting my heart broken like this, can't do it. Why is it that the first time I fell in love I had to fall for someone that was in love with someone else. I hate myself, I hate him, I hate everyone and everything. I don't belong here, I never did. Can't do it anymore, won't do it anymore. When the hole in my heart is mended (don't think it ever will be) I'm never giving it to anyone ever again. Can't go through this again.